[vid] Love Lasts Forever (Wilson/Amber)

[ticcyyy]

download (113MB, .WMV)

title: Love Lasts Forever
pairing: Wilson/Amber
song: Philadelphia by Neil Young
duration: 3;22
disclaimer: When the vulture flies sideways, the moon has hair on its upper lip.
summary/notes: Wilson looking back on his relationship with Amber. Post-finale vid.

I was trawling around on Youtube and came across this song, which I remembered hearing in that Tom Hanks movie, Philadelphia, and was all, OMG MUST MAKE VID. I made this vid to look like a home movie in parts (which is why the download is so big - the filters take up a lot of space), because I wanted to capture the idea of Wilson reminiscing on his relationship with Amber. I also edited the song a fair bit to take the focus away from 'Philadelphia' and onto the theme of the vid more. Huge thanks to euclase for uploading the song to me! 'Cos I don't know where I would've got it, otherwise.

And... I may have cried a bit while making this vid. Because guh, the season finale. And Wilson. And Amber. And guhhh. I am still grieving a bit, lol.

Watch here



philadelphia by neil young
Sometimes I think that I know
What love's all about
And when I see the light
I know I'll be all right.

I've got my friends in the world,
I had my friends
When we were boys and girls
And the secrets came unfurled.

Someone is talking to me,
Calling my name
Tell me I'm not to blame
I won't be ashamed of love.

Sometimes I think that I know
What love's all about
And when I see the light
I know I'll be all right.
Philadelphia.

Comments

[gleam.livejournal.com]

AAAH!

Will be back shortly with commentary!

<3

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

Hee, whoo!! I hope you enjoy it! ♥♥

[gleam.livejournal.com]

Okay! I'm not quite as coherent here on this one because can we say emotional? GAH! I love it so much!

The effect you used is fantastic. I know you were worried about it some, but it looks amazing. So sweet and heartfelt, and he'd have done that, too.

The song is perfect. It's completely gorgeous, and the feel of it is just soft and it really comes from the heart. And I like how you didn't just make it about Wilson and Amber alone, it's about Wilson's entire life.

At the minute mark, the face Wilson makes is golden. I love the withering look.

It's so sad how he walks away, kind of like he's realizing they're a part of his life but not the whole part anymore, because there was something with Amber he didn't have in any other way. It was different.

1:28 kills me dead. I love the way that came together.

1:35 :(

So sad. So incredibly sad. You're right, it breaks my heart all over again and makes me want to cry.

2:03 is gorgeous. Perfect, right there.

Again, I love the effect. It's perfect with the music, and with what happened. Completely nostalgic, bittersweet.

2:43 :(!!!!!!!!!!!

3:02 and the fade out is perfectly done. I love the use of the black and white, it was just right for that part, and the music went along with it.

And in addition, your audio editing was epic and fantastic! I heard the song before, and you really did a lot of great things with it.

Again! Fantastic job, so perfect! You really did a wonderful job and I know this was emotional to make, but it was so beautiful and so meaningful that I think it's going to emotionally touch a lot of hearts.

Be proud, this is wonderful!

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[gleam.livejournal.com]

I loved it! <3!

[thyroidstorm.livejournal.com]

I am still grieving a bit, lol.
I think we all are.

Beautiful video, incredible song.

[athenaraven.livejournal.com]

I hate you for making me sadder than I already am.

But it's lovely, and the home movie effect creates this nostalgic feel that intensifies the pain even more. Poor Wilson. :(

[nightdog-barks.livejournal.com]

Ticcy, this is gorgeous. That's all I got.

*mems*

[poorfrances.livejournal.com]

Ticcy Ticcy Ticcy.

You kill me with this. Because my girlfriend and I have been a wreck since this episode aired (actually since "House's Head" aired) because it made us think about something happening to each other. And just personal reasons identifying with Wilson and Amber in those episodes. And I was making her a mix, just an "I love you" mix, and this song was on it. Even though we have no connection to Philadelphia, just because the song is beautiful and expressive, IDK. And it's not a song most people would think of as a love song, so to see you use it in this way literally made us cry.

I know it's just a show and everything, but gah. "Wilson's Heart" hasn't affected me as much as anything I've seen in TV or film since "Band of Brothers."

[cenori.livejournal.com]

I didn't even get a minute into this before I was just bawling. I cried just as hard as I did during the finale. That song... I'd completely forgotten about that song. It's been so long since I last saw Philadelphia, but as soon as I heard the opening, it brought back all the emotions I felt after seeing that movie for the first time. And paired with the images of Wilson and Amber... I kind of lost it.

This was so beautiful, and so devastating. It is absolutely my new favorite vid of yours.

[jdr1184.livejournal.com]

Lovely, my dear. I find it really interesting how hot the new bed sex is when you slow it down and take out the odd panting. The transition between the young happy Wilson and the mourning Wilson was heart breaking. God I'm going to miss her as much as Wilson.

[bammel.livejournal.com]

Absolutely stunning. I think I found it more affecting than the actual finale, ahaha. Thank you so much.

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

Yeah. The song is really something. I heard it and just had to use it because it just summed up everything so well.

Thanks so much for watching. ♥

[earlwyn.livejournal.com]

It's been so long since I last saw Philadelphia, but as soon as I heard the opening, it brought back all the emotions I felt after seeing that movie for the first time.

God yes. Oh what that movie did to my heart...

[giellen.livejournal.com]

SAY HAI TO AWESOMENESS (AKA TICCY EDITION).

Lol, I'm crying xD

[earlwyn.livejournal.com]

ohhhh, that song. That song makes me cry just to hear it. Added to Wilson and Amber? DDDDDD:

Sobbing. Again. Your vids persist on doing this to me. I suddenly -- I don't know. It's like for one minute I suddenly understood with perfect clarity what Wilson's expression felt like when he finds the note. Everything seemed to build to that moment and it was perfect and soul destroying and lovely.

I love the way you trasitioned between past and present with the clips. The moment that set me off? When Wilson's smile from DIYD bled into the shattered look as he watches House. Coupled with the lyrics -- those just seem like such simpler, happier times and ohh, how I long for those. Also, I never realised how tender the kiss Wilson gives to Amber in bed really is. Slowed down like that it suddenly became heartwrenching and meaningful. And then faded into the kiss Wilson gives Amber right before she dies, that same sort of tenderness... Oh.

You also did an AMAZING job re-creating the home video look. And that shot of Amber looking peaceful, fading into white? I smiled then and somehow that made me cry more.

Really, really amazing. I'm babbling but honestly, this vid really touched me. It's grief. Right there. It's everything about grief from the absolutely shattered moments to remembering happier times because you're so sad to having a little bit of closure and how people just cling to that one scrap of stability. Gah. Babbling. Right. I'm just -- yeah.

Yeah. Deeply moved right now.

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

Nostalgic was definitely what I wanted to create. That idea of longing and knowing you can never go back to it and aching for it so much because you miss it. That was the emotion I was definitely trying to evoke.

*hugs* Thanks so much for watching. I'm glad you liked it, even if you hate me for it. :-P

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks so much. Your comment really means a lot. ♥

[shutterbug-12.livejournal.com]

Ticcy, you have outdone yourself. The "old" film footage look is such a great technique and makes those sequences ever sadder than they would have been without it. Wonderful choice to use the DIYD silly footage for the "friends" and "boys and girls" moment.

Guh, this is so sad. You've made me cry. Thank you. Damn it. I lasted until the slow-motion happy kissing. Damn it. Damn it, damn it.

This is, hands down, the best video you've ever made. I feel like it belongs in a movie. Guh.

[stare-me-out.livejournal.com]

Wonderful vid, it almost made me cry.

The effects are great, it feels almost voyeuristic to watch

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

LIL!!!! I love these commentaries you give! ♥♥ I haven't written my own commentaries for a while for my own vids cos, idk. I want to but maybe it's a bit wanky to do commentaries? idk.

it's about Wilson's entire life

Yes! I wanted it to reflect more than just what Amber was to him, because House and Cuddy are just as important, just as significant, and who the hell knows what impact Amber's death will have on his friendship with them D: D:

1;28 - that kiss, when slowed down, is so fucking tender. It's so loving and gentle and skdfhlgadf g;ldjfghkdafg. Gah, that made me so sad, too. D:

Yeah, in 20\;03, Amber looks so peaceful. But it just kills me that she left Wilson behind, so to speak. Stayed on the bus. :-(

I had so much fun editing the song! Like I said to you, I love the audio editing part as much as the video editing part. I love seeing how I can pull apart a song and put it back together to make something a bit different (and shorter, lol, in a lot of cases because a lot of songs are too long).

EEE. THANK YOU SO MUCH, BB. Your feedback means so much ♥♥ I gotta go and reply to your other one, too! <3333333333333333 Thanks for all the support and encouragement. I really mean that. :-)

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

it made us think about something happening to each other

I always find it so odd how movies or TV are almost always the things that remind us that life is fragile.

Oh man. Philadelphia is such a powerful song. It's not strictly a love song, not strictly a song about death, not strictly a song about any one thing in particular. But it sure does touch the emotions deeply. I was actually going to use Tears In Heaven originally but that didn't seem like enough, you know? Not the kind of mood and emotion I wanted to convey. Philadelphia, though, was it.

Yeah, the episode really affected a lot of people. It's so weird to see the whole fandom reeling from it. :-( Thanks for watching the vid - and that's so sweet to make an 'I love you' mix for your girl. ♥

[gleam.livejournal.com]

Hey, you can count on them! ♥ I used to do commentaries for my own videos all the time, and then after awhile I just lost the luster to do it. I felt weird, like I was trying to force my interpretation on other people, and eventually I just stopped and started writing my thoughts. And I think that how you present yours is excellent. It's just enough information for the viewers to know what you were thinking and then let their minds run wild with the idea of it. :)

It's funny, after watching this more (yes, I've watched it multiple times since you put it up! I like to watch them more than once at first especially), I kind of get this feeling of contentment from when Wilson and Amber were together before the accident, but it's like..I don't know how to explain it other than he was looking for something throughout his life and found whatever he was looking for in her. There was something special there, and the fact that this is what happened just made it so achingly bittersweet. You really wrapped that up in here.

1:28 you're right about the kiss! I would have missed that if I hadn't seen it in your video here, but it's really there, just the way he was with her. She really meant something.

STAYED ON THE BUS. God, kill me now. :(

The audio editing was a phenomenal thing! I mean, if I hadn't heard the song before I never would have known it was edited and I'm not kidding you. XD It was just seamless!

You are so welcome! It's so much fun to do, so prepare for lots more to come. :D It's really amazing to have someone to talk to about all of these on a regular basis. Absolutely means so much to me, so you are very welcome! You'll always have support and encouragement from me, you deserve them because you're very talented and it's evident you really put your heart and self into these. And that is how it should be.

♥

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

It's a song that just reaches deep in your heart, isn't it? It's such a raw, honest song, which is exactly how I wanted this vid to be. Raw and honest and full of nostalgia.

♥♥♥ I love you. JUST THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW. ♥♥♥

[ticcyyy.livejournal.com]

Lmao, the panting was a bit odd. I think that was RSL's way of trying to do hot sex? Lololol. Idk what it was. But yeah, slowed down, the bedroom scene is hot and very tender. The way he kisses her, when slowed down, is really gentle and meaningful.

Yeah. I miss her so much already. D: D: Thanks so much for watching.

[hannahrorlove.livejournal.com]

I don't blame you for crying when you made this; I cried a bit watching it. You've got some very powerful feelings in a small little package, and you handled it beautifully.