I was about to shut down my laptop and did a last check at the house_cuddy community to check if there was anything i missed...and well, i ended up going to bed 2 hours later because there was just no way for me to stop mid-story and postpone it to the next day.

your story is heartbreakingly real. and it made me think about when it's my time to be a mother. I have a sinking feeling I just might end up feeling and behaving like Cuddy in your story - insecure, depressed, anxious, unconfident. I know this is only fiction but you wrote it so well, I can "see" so many mothers nodding in agreement.