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ticcyyy ([personal profile] ticcyyy) wrote2009-03-04 08:12 am
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Sometimes I write vignettes or something

I've been a bit quiet lately. Sorry about that. Thanks to the few of you who got in contact over last week - sorry I haven't gotten back to you. I'll rectify that in the next day or so!

Also, I have a new layout. Check it out. [livejournal.com profile] cryptictac

Meanwhile, I wrote a small fic last night. The whole House/hooker thing has always intrigued me, and this is one way I've always imagined a House/hooker scene would go.

PG-13, 900~ words

"Where's your happy place?" she asks.

House lies sprawled on his back, bed sheets over his middle, the sweat on his skin drying to a stale stickiness. The moonlight streaming in through the windows bends odd shapes across his dark bedroom. The sheets smell of sweat and sex. It's the first time he's gotten laid in - God, he can't even remember when.

"I don't have a happy place," he says. A flat response. An honest response. Hookers are easy to be honest with. Not that he opens up to hookers very often, nor does he turn to hookers all that often either.

She laughs; a throaty, dry laugh. Cherry, she'd said her name was when he let her into his apartment. "Oh, come on. Everybody has a happy place." She shifts onto her side towards him, breasts exposed, her head propped up on her hand. "Even us empty, cold-blooded whores."

"What's your happy place, then?" he retorts.

"We're not talking about me."

"I'm not interested in talking about me, either."

"You're the one who started talking, buddy. People only talk because they want someone to listen to them."

"Or maybe they just like the sound of their own voice."

She reaches to his chest and threads her fingers through the small tufts of hair on his sternum. He lets her. It's not going to matter once he's paid her and she steps out into the cold night. "Trust me," she says. "No one ever talks to a hooker unless they're lonely."

"Nice. Making your job sound like innocent social work."

"I'm just paid to be something another human being wants to connect to for an hour or so. That's why you're paying me, right?"

House thinks about that for a moment. Her hand is gentle on his chest, her fingers tracing light circles over his skin. If he closes his eyes, he can almost pretend for a moment he's being touched by someone who matters to him. He's not sure he can remember what that feels like, though. "It's none of your business why I'm paying you."

"Well, you hired me for three hours. You still have almost two hours left."

"So?" He looks at her sharply. "Like I said, it's none of your business why I'm paying you."

"It's my business when you make it my business."

House opens his mouth to argue. But he closes it again. He's not paying her to argue. He's not even paying her so he can hide. No point in hiding from hookers. They see too many empty, broken people to be fooled by pretenses. For that, House is strangely grateful. It's a relief to let go for a little while. He looks away and as she trails her hand up to his neck and strokes her fingers along his jaw, he turns his head slightly towards the touch.

"I'm not sure I know what happiness is," he admits quietly.

"You've never been happy?"

"I was once."

She slides her hand up into his hair. His one weakness: hands in his hair. He finally lets his eyes fall shut. "What happened?" she asks.

"Life happened."

"For some, that's a good thing."

"Guess I was one of the unlucky ones."

"What was her name?"

"What makes you think it's a person? Or even a she?"

"I've been in this business a long time. If people aren't seeking sex to fulfill something they're not getting elsewhere or to feed some kind of addiction, they're usually missing someone."

Her words cause an unexpected, twisting ache in his chest. "She's long gone from my life." He feels Cherry's nails lightly scratching his scalp and her thumb trace down his temple. "What's your real name?"

"Cherry. I told you."

"No," he replies. "Your real name."

"I can't tell you that."

He knows this, of course. It's along the same rule as hookers not kissing their clients on the mouth. Still. "I'm not going to tell anyone."

"Doesn't matter. I'm not paid to be a real girl."

"You seem pretty real to me."

"In your head, perhaps." She runs her hand down to his chest again. Her touch is so deceivingly gentle, so deceivingly genuine. He almost wants to turn his lips to hers and kiss her, just to feel that connection, that moment of feeling like he belongs somewhere, to someone. She's right, he realises. It's just in his head.

"You're good at what you do," he tells her in a wry tone.

"I know."

He opens his eyes and sees her watching him. "How much time do I have left?"

"An hour and forty-five minutes."

He nods. "Just keep doing what you're doing."

"Being touched gets you off more than getting you off does?"

"No." He closes is eyes again with a quiet sigh as she pushes her hand back into his hair. "I just want to get my money's worth."

He feels her head settle on his shoulder, her body up against his side, warm and solid and real. When she drapes her arm over his middle, he replaces her in his mind with someone who's as real to him as she is long gone from his life, and it's about as close to a happy place as he can get. Just for a little while, at least.

[identity profile] ayalanetzer.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I love the layout!
(I came to a conclusion that I want to get to know you better, so hi! :D)

[identity profile] shutterbug-12.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG, I've wanted to write a House/hooker scene myself, and I'm so glad you did! Yay! B/c now...I can just read this one. =) Thanks for writing it!

But, man, okay, yours was a little more angsty (and, guh, killed me a little bit and made me hurt for House, but I still loved that part of it) than I would have imagined. It seems that the hookers House hires are much more, well, genuine than this one. Hookers seem to like him and he seems to treat them...not like hookers, and seems to be able to have more fun with them now. (There's a huge difference to the hooker interactions we've seen this season as opposed to, say, Paula in S2). But this was a really nice portrayal, and a great look into what House misses, and who he misses. Loved it. <333

Mmm, coming back again, because I just read it again. =) And, yeah, ouchy. It makes me hurt worse on the second read. The ending really is horribly sad. *goes off to read again*
Edited 2009-03-03 21:31 (UTC)

[identity profile] phinnia.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
this is so lovely and sweet and sad. the hands in his hair and the touching and replacing her in his head with someone else.

[identity profile] tourmaline1973.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
This is such a lovely fic, so sweet & sad. Poor House :(

[identity profile] vanyx.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Great layout =)
And I really love your fic ♥♥♥
"I'm not sure I know what happiness is," he admits quietly.
so sad... ;(
thanks for writing ♥

[identity profile] katernater.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Tragic and perfect -- and so very House.

[identity profile] worried-bubble.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Ooh, the layout's pretty!
And I'm glad you wrote a hooker fic, I've always been intrigued by this topic. It was a great read!

[identity profile] euclase.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)

Beautiful vignette, dear. I don't use the 'I could see it happening in canon' line, but... I could see it happening in canon, lol. And for some reason, I keep seeing the "Answer" chick from House's Head. Dunno why, but this is very nice and incredibly tactile, like your stories always are, and it made a long day better. Thanks for sharing. <3

[identity profile] 2801rosie.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Love the layout, especially the phrase.
Loved the story, very bittersweet and very House.
Love that you're back, you've been noticeably missed!!!
Hope everything is well with you and yours.

[identity profile] snapplesons.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I love your layout!!

[identity profile] sganzy-fics.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
""So?" He looks at her sharply. "Like I said, it's none of my business why I'm paying you.""

-> "Your" business ;-)

Well, great fic! Sweet and sad, but strangely beautiful. Very House.

[identity profile] missy7280.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Ticcy! :D

Your layout is so prettttty. Love it. ♥

Great little ficlet. I'm becoming more and more fond of House/hooker as an actual pairing. It makes the most sense, honestly, since House refuses to let himself be normal and happy. At least he can get some sort of happiness in a more unusual way.
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[identity profile] bironic.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
This breaks my heart. I wonder if House really ever was happy. But I think if he was, (not counting, say, very early childhood, before he could really appreciate it,) it was with Stacy, like he says here.

[identity profile] just-schtupp.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
I miss you.

Great fic. The not kissing on the mouth part.. Where the heck have I heard that recently? (don't tell me!)

[identity profile] tripperfunster.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
Ouch! That was very sad. :(

Lovely work hon! (next time don't skip the sex part though, m'kay?) :D

[identity profile] seaside-daisy.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
Layout is *gorgeous*. And so glad to hear from you. Was really missing you around here! ♥

[identity profile] mzpeaches21.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
This is so intimate, I almost feel like a snoop for reading.

Brilliant though honey!

[identity profile] bammel.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 01:22 am (UTC)(link)


YOU = A+

I'm glad to see you.

[identity profile] the-vintage.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
I love your new layout! :)

Also, that was a really good amount of angst.

[identity profile] phineas-gatsby.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
That is so beautiful.

I really like that the hooker is acting like a real girl but we know she's acting. Is she interested? Maybe. Does she care? Probably not. But she's good at pretending.

So, yeah, I really liked that.
london_fan: London - Tower Bridge at night with a beautiful blue/teal colouring (House/Cuddy- Light my fire!)

[personal profile] london_fan 2009-03-04 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Your layout is gorgeous. It feels deep (for lack of a better word) with a lot of meaning behind it. Hope you are okay. ♥

This story is so sad, but so House that it hurts.

[identity profile] bluebonnets.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
Love the new layout.
Love the vignette.

[identity profile] daasgrrl.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
Ow. Not what I was expecting from House/hooker, but I like what you did with it.

[identity profile] amy-119.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Love, love the fic. Very nice.

Good to hear from you again, bb. <3

[identity profile] blackmare-9.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
Added this to my memories. So strangely tender, it feels so real for House -- and it breaks my heart for him.


[identity profile] wanderlonely.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
Love the style of your new layout!

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
Hee! This reply to your comment is eons late, but thank you, babe!

[identity profile] swirlsofblue.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
This is lovely, I really liked the the sorrowful sweetness of it

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, bb!

[identity profile] jonne17.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
Good to see you're back, and I love this fic. It's such a fascinating aspect of House, these 'relationships' where he doesn't have to explain or excuse. He is so vulnerable here, and yet very much House.

I love the quote from Lisa Edelstein on your page, I never saw that before.

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
It's why I love House/hooker as a pairing because it's really the only pairing that makes sense, as much as I love all the other pairings.

Isn't it an awesome quote? It's one of those quotes that applies to so many people, too.

[identity profile] inflightdata.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, this is so sweet. And so House. Well done.

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, bb!! ♥
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[identity profile] asus2004.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I loved reading your fic. It's very House-like and bittersweet. Thanks for writing it ♥

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading, bb! ♥

[identity profile] topaz-eyes.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, the hooker vignette is so very sad, House trying to find comfort in virtual anonymity and knowing it's fleeting, but takes it anyway because it's all he can get. A lovely story about pain and honesty.

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
It's sad that he would only really be open and honest to someone he knows he won't see again, too :-(

Thanks for reading, bb. ♥
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[identity profile] murli486.livejournal.com 2009-03-04 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, there you are. Glad you're back :) Your fic feels like it could've been a scene out of a real House episode, or at least it should be. Grasping-for-happiness House is a heart-wrenching image :(

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
Grasping-for-happiness House is a heart-wrenching image

Sad, and yet the only way I can see him ever being, really :-(

Thanks for reading!

[identity profile] joe-pike-junior.livejournal.com 2009-03-06 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
House opens his mouth to argue. But he closes it again. He's not paying her to argue. He's not even paying her so he can hide.
This is so in-character, but surprisingly tender at the same time. Well done.

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! Yeah, House is abrasive and caustic and likes to have people believe he has no feelings - but he's human, too. He hurts just like everyone else does.

Thanks for reading. :-)

[identity profile] sadpie.livejournal.com 2009-03-07 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
Gah, wow. I really love the concept of House/Hooker. Great work. =)

[identity profile] ticcyyy.livejournal.com 2009-03-21 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much!

[identity profile] sydpenguinbunny.livejournal.com 2011-06-16 05:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I love this (and I ended up here via sick_wilson in a round about way) <3 I was actually just talking about this kind of thing the other day, it seems like House orders hookers more to just have a good time with no emotional strings attached than for sex/misogynistic reasons... I mean, consider his whole interaction with Dominika, after all.